you beautiful light skinned God, be cocky, be american and I'll want you even more. the keyboard and my hands can't deal with switching cultures. but my mind and my mouth do just fine. you look so good in the chat room, and the moment of pure testoserone relief you gave me on the webcam depresses me now. girls are always so desperate and it makes me angry. men in their 30's are so hot, hopefully i can find a good mature one when I move to the states, yikes I meant toronto. what a ...
shoot me scotty and take me to another land. I'm tired of this existence where I have to create my own drama. Take me where I've never been before where my mid-western abusive husband gets rid of all his negative points and comes back to me the way I always imagined he was. my stomach growls from something funky this morning, made with love, but made in a kitchen that's simply fucking disgusting. The bitch that made it for me, is pretty grotesque too. She's Indian trash and I'm her fucking ...
This is home, I grew up here, This is home. Do I need to repeat myself for you, you lily princess. You everlasting beautiful princess. I wish I could be more of you, I wish we could get married and have beautiful light-skinned children together. If not light-skinned then dark and intellectual. Whew. I'm going through a gay mid-life crisis. My friends are getting married off and I'm stuck here doing nothing at all. They're having to deal with in-laws while my job is giving me shade about my ...
He hated my ass for saying "peace in the middle east". He hated my friends for having an advantage over the lighter skinned female. I'm not hating, I'm just not being a fucking faggot. I'm just standing up for what I believe in and not backing down. If you're sacrificing your life for the cause of corporate religious america, don't hate me. Hate your government. Revoke my citizenship my ass. Don't hate me because of where I was born. I'll sleep with brothers until they know the fuck...
The tall Brit/Isle of Manner touched my face like it was his. He told me that when I smiled he wanted to talk to me. Then his skank walked in. He's such a fucking flirt that fucker. But he manages it so well. Why can't I bag a man like that, an older brother figure that's good for me. That's sparing but genuine with the compliments.
I want to drink cheap beer until I lose the perception of reality I currently have. I want to then go surround myself with people I can't touch but have some heavy intellectual stimulation. I lodok like some nasty philippino loser tonight, but why the hell wont anyone come with me? JFC, what's wrong with these people. Does no one want to drink till oblivion anymore? Am I really a bad influence? Come on lets just get drunk and make fools of ourselves. What's wrong with that. This adrenaline ...
I need to get laid and nobody wants to fuck. What's fucking new in my life?
He's fresh off the emotional boat and I can't handle it. Money is evil. The people you love are the one's you end up hurting the most. You need to watch that shit. Prenatal friends my ass. Vindicate my lubrication. Vindicate my nelly gay soul. Then marry me and have fucking children. Insert normality where there never has been that shit. And the tear drops start coming. And I'm going through the coming out shizzle all over again. And for part II of my life story call me tommorow...
nebuchadneezer was a villian and so was ravan. but if the parents never taught us that, how the fuck are we supposed to know. take your fucking sexist shit and shove it elsewhere. this angry nigger aint going to take your shit. Is New Zealand cold? I wonder how long it'll take to get a passport there. Canadian passports are kinda ugly, i wonder what a NZ passport looks like. God bless america. I hope they're not hating there. Hating America that is. My hand smells like Onions a...
How fucked up is that. But as I pulled up a Web Page and todays featured members where white. I was like "isn't that nice". I felt the website was safer, cleaner and most of all; more beautiful than any of the other days I've logged on to the website. When CNN has non-white anchors on, I feel uncomfortable, I change the fucking channel. What's wrong with me? God I wonder if I'm like the Philipino parents that teach their children to marry anything but Philipino when they grow up. Isn't t...
another drink to pass the time that seems to stand still. and the yearning for a lighter child doesn't dim as fast as the hope for the realization of the yearning. another sip of this spoilt water to create a feeling not nearly as boring as the feeling i feel now. on this sticky island life becomes slower and food and liquor create any speed that you may feel. and the not so good looking shorter person that i slept with the other night, yearns for my attention. or so i would like to think. ...
He just sits there and my eyes wander to him. The `I'm straight' man looks at me with eyes of envy and I don't want him anymore for technical reasons. I wake up from a drunken stupor with 3 Japanese guys getting it on in the corner. It's 730 and my mother has called 7 times. She's gonna be pissed off as fuck. I'm calling my dad right now, hopefully it won't be hell on earth. Okay he was cool These soon to be gay 6th graders remind me of what I used to be. I see my pain in their eye...
A phone call from a friend to tell me the North Star is in love with me. "I'm not gay" he says over and over again, and I feel the unwanted anticipation of an impeding relationship. The horrible fear of feeling vulnerable again, the fear of having a bu who loves me for me. Not having to deal with racial slurs and entering a relationship where I can feel real love and not some fucked up version of someones baggage being played over and over again. Lord give me the strenght to not hurt the p...
all i ever had. redemption song. these songs of freedom. all i ever knew. The Married Man with 2 kids kept on looking at me from across the bar. He's Okinawan by choice, I'm Okinawan by birth. The fucking Amejo was walking around like she was some good shit. Bitch please, I have more game than you'll ever have. Go straighten your teeth, and dye your hair black bitch. And please, please for the love of God, no more Curry Comments from the fucking Nihonjins. The bar was so beautiful, true ...
I needed to get laid yesterday, and I did. Of course it was with some big white man with pictures of his porky pig looking wife all over the house. But it was good and I didn't have to do much work at all. He wanted me to spend the night, what is he fucking crazy? His Miss Piggy wife was everywhere, the fucker ate my ass out, licked my balls like ice cream, deep throated my cock like a hungry mole all in front of a picture of his wife. But his bed was so comfortable, why does my existence ha...