so i'm really bored here. i'm getting fat.... eating all this delicious food. i love japan but I hate japan, you know what I mean. anywho's the kids are friggin crazy, thank god I only have to deal with them for , at the most, 2 hours a day..... could you imagine having to deal with their dirtiness all day long. so how about a Master of Science in International Relations? From Troy State University?, it's either that or a counseling degree, but I can wait for that.... the international rel...

i only got attention from the japs tonight. those beautiful whities didn't want to be with me at all. the bitter marine that rejected me online did turn out to be totally bitter. he was almost suicidal. i don't want japanese friends, i want some nice military men to show me the light. i'm not the right fucking color. i'm not the right fucking occupation. i'm not the right fucking citizenship. so i'm afraid of acting pathetic, i'm afraid of looking ridiculous, me and the drunk GI's only say ...

I want a man with dark rimmed glasses. I wonder why that turns me on. Those hot military men on the beach where driving me crazy, and knew I couldn't touch. Thank God the feelings of guilt are no longer there, but being stuck here is killing my sex drive. Just give me some head, give me some head. All the niggas on the street say " money oh we made it, it feels so good in my hood tonight" don't fuck with me unless you're ready to get fucked hard. I"m an angry black man in an olive body. my b...

so i wouldn't become more of a darkie. left the sunscreen on my face because it caused a white reflection. left the sunscreen on my face because it was my day off and I wanted to rest and bask in the glory of the day before. now instead of being a darker darkie, i'm a pimple faced quarter lifer. instead of the radiating whiteness, i glow of immaturity and ugliness. meeting with the cops in an hour and my clean record in this country down the drain. i feel dirty and nasty. I feel like I'm sc...

How good does it feel. Does his tainted love feel any less real? Do the niggahs you grew up with seem any less real? Does your sense of self seem any less real, or does it seem to be challenged at every turn. Thank God my niggahs still appreciate me. Thank God, I don't have to worry about anything except small shit of talking behind my back, and thats okay. And now I can go jump in a lake and everything will be okay, deal with this shit. Ellie I tried to call you today. And I'm not such a...

and things aren't that bad anymore. I'm so tired of having to watch this propaganda bullshit. I want entertainment my way, right away. fuck this AFN sports shit. I wanna steal your man. I wanna steal his attention. Men can be all about the body, but some men are about the mind. And I am the Mind Fuck, I can steal your mind and your attention, without you even knowing it. I can make you feel things that you've never felt before and will never feel again. I can leave the room and my presence ...

i need to research the term pre madonna more. i love being so complex.

i'm hot with fever. everytime she comes around. i'm not a movie watcher. aint no sunshine when she's gone. everytime she comes around. being in a comfortable place is so beautiful. having an essential person that has your back is so important. when the whities are there, its so important. mid 30 motherfuckers are the best. i love the game. players that got more game than I do, fuck them. i need to stop smoking. its so fucking retarded. that i leave the states and i get addicted to tobacco o...

God I had so many epiphanies last night, it was fucking crazy. It feels good to be back home and party and let yourself go. Too many years of trying to relax in a foreign place just didn't do much for me. I'm home da yo. I'm home and I can actually relax, finally after all these years of thinking there was something wrong with me socially, that my need to get laid was some kind of dysfunction. It wasn't, it was my need to feel accepted, feel at home. Hell, welcome me with your cock. What bett...

I haven't eaten all day, and I'm waiting for some mushrooms..... i've tried it a couple times, but never felt it.... i'm so fucking bored on this island, that i'm excited just on the possibility of getting ripped god i need to get fucking laid. i need to get the flu shot. i'm around all those dirty kids all day. no food, don't eat any food

so your fucking song became mine, just like we share struggles, we share songs. we share man keeping techniques.... i want to sing `aint no sunshine` to bobster on the phone, but i might just wait until we see each other next time...... god it would be so easy to throw him away, if i could find something better.... somebody who treats me like trash..... i wonder why i like that.... but like my dyke friend told me... knowing you like it and letting the relationship continue are 2 sepera...

so let this whole ordeal be over with before it starts. give the mother fuckers their money, charge my insurance whatever you need to and let me go to bed with this whole ordeal. I can't deal with my name being drug through the mud, just give me some more pachiri pachiri showers, and let the smell of a japanese shower radiate through my house, and when i step out of the bathroom, I feel fresh, the smell is designed to smooth me. I smell it when I walk past the whore houses, pass any place the...