God I had so many epiphanies last night, it was fucking crazy. It feels good to be back home and party and let yourself go. Too many years of trying to relax in a foreign place just didn't do much for me. I'm home da yo. I'm home and I can actually relax, finally after all these years of thinking there was something wrong with me socially, that my need to get laid was some kind of dysfunction. It wasn't, it was my need to feel accepted, feel at home. Hell, welcome me with your cock. What better way to tell me that I'm welcome. That you want me here.
of course only the oldies and the socially dysfunctional put out, but that's okay.... you gotta start from somewhere. here, i don't have to lower my standards, i take only what i really want... and it's good for me..
the whole " i need grounding" theory turned out to be true.
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