where is joeuser? joeuser my old blog pal is gone and I don't know where it is. I had some good shit in there and now I don't even have access to it. A life learned lesson that you can't really trust anything that is free. I hope it comes up for a day or two so I can print all that shit. especially before I get out of this job where there is a free printer. anywho's back to my self-created world. I am good enough I am strong enough and dog gonnit people like me and the low self...

and the world never stays the same when everything seems to be going great along comes some kind of confusion a Job is a good thing to have tells you the aging drying lesbian the soldier looks at you across the bar and his eyes share the same passion as yours you want to melt in his arms over and over again he tells me I need to practice some self control and his voice speaks right to my heart I have no pressure to resist him unless I paste too much of myself on him I want to ...

Let me go to places where I don't belong to believe in that feeling your kisses bring to much comfort your adoration way too much pain I drown in my own belief that you're too good to be true and the people say that whats between us is good if they only knew then the drunken walks to the gate in the air of morning glory continue and the walk aways take nothing but my aura I want to rescind in this demeanor and your english amazes me lord you bought me a night on the town i...

Enough of this feeling good of this making me happy of this your cock, my cock making each other happy cock cock a doodle doo writing poems on notes at the bar where you spilll your guts and I sit there and become shy where I tell you not too much, not too little where we drink to our happiness where we hold each other and tell each other we finally got what we fucking deserve drawing pictures talking dirty mocking each other god we're so horrible god we're so annoying t...

When you look at their name and it turns you on When you really don't care what happens as long as you're happy. we fuck with each other in exactly the right way we play with each others mind we play the jealousy card like a fine tuned violin and nothing escapes this duet I got a man in Japan and a dude in tahiti, believe me sweety I got enough to feed the needy are my lines getting old? will he get tired of me. he came out in his glasses yesterday...... how friggin cute. m...

The technical music brings back unnatural memories of drug influenced emotions that bruise the newer sees what the older never could and now I can build on a solid ground comfort me until I can comfort you warm me up with your beauty lets talk about our not so perfect childhoods and let each other know its gonna be okay concentrate on the love the bitter tells me the bitter, the hopeful, perhaps the lost we learn to protect ourselves over and over again we forget to protect our...

Take a Deep Breathe Let the world settle around you. Don't worry about your appearance to the general population. And breathe my presence in. When i hold you, how does it make you feel. Does it make you feel like I'll carry some of your burden. i'm strong enough i promise tell me more beautiful lies than i've ever heard before categorize your affection to something less worth your presence into an obligation winding up and down then she tells me nothing special and reduces...

You're off the Market the drinking soldier tells me in a romantic voice. he amazes me with his simpleness he tells me I'll get bored of him like thats what he wants me to do implant a seed and watch it grow what seeds do I implant he says he'll stay with me as long as I don't leave he is so what I deserve he can teach me what I am really worth he can ultimately bore me his eyes are everywhere except me he says he's only joking but who am I kidding it feels so right it fe...

I couldn't keep it its okay do you feel the self-esteem falling do you feel the worthlessness rising do you feel the boyfriend losing do you feel the anger rising do you feel the no good sex having do you feel the bum becoming do you feel the addiction growing do you feel the sadness compounding do you feel the depression spitting So now I have to find a job where I actually have to do work where I have to impress people i have to keep a self esteem on 2 feet and nothing else ...

I'm gonna be the one to give it to you They're all messing with my man If he sticks around Don't mess with my "off the market" man Insecurity is not a pretty color on you says the cutie buns honey pie scrumpulutious nymphomaniac lover boy We all Ho's We all Ho's As I try to contorl my gorilla related behaviour As I take deep breathes to release my primal instincts I have to take a reality pill and realize he's just a Ho Who's a Ho "I can't do it Shore's my friend" What bea...

You dirty dirty mother fucker I think I fucking love you Where do you get off Where do you get off making an irreversible impression on me how gave you the keys to me Jeep beep beep hugging you is comfort dancing naked with you is hot your words burn and melt me at the same fucking time I cant send this to you because I'm not a boy I can't send this to you because I'm not a girl Can we really go there? Can we go where no body I know has gone before? Can my love fo...

Addicted Wanting to date the mysterious bitch who takes control who lets me lose myself and stand on something else except my own "2 feet" where the people who try to control have no idea what I have on them where I fool myself with every puff or sip and at least no one is telling me what to fucking do edit my pain, but never ever fucking edit my desire I resort to nothing but extinction or so thats what the good looking teenage spokesmodels tell me well guess what you fuckers ...

So tell me something new you filthy --- tell me something old with your bags of gold it doesn't matter they're not christian anyways says the man attempting to be open-minded one slip proved everything I already knew already fucking knew

Waiting for an Answer and what you realize is that life has very few answers a husband/wife is definitely not one of them family most of the time is. Mine is. Imagine if it wasn't. I realize the things I never thought I would. And what I realize is that theres no excuse for the fucker. Let go of the anger sonny boy. I have to let go of mine now. The tears start talking only when you're not there. I wish I didn't have to. But I do. Let you go. (written while waiting for an a...

My sister is down with the program. How funny. She's chill like that. What a predicament I'm in a beatiful man, my sister torn between the two. Gosh I wonder whats gonna win. A beatiful man. God I think I fucking love him. You're my man for now Can't no one else touch you he says Nobody else I dont know what I'm gonna do when you cut your hair he says and the shower love making was so hot and we're so natural together peace