Just keep him here, he'll be okay. Says the older brother figure I never had. The Chinese Xanax is kicking in over and over again And my mouth is too big for my own good. The man called twice this morning. Hes such a sweetie too accesible I suppose what the fuck is wrong with humans pets are the best they're not as evil as humans fuckers better represent Indian Wives are so cool you can treat them like shit and they never leave never leave don't tell them about your past...
And the summary of all those drunken mornings bare the same essence. Living cross culturally opens your mind if you let it and only if you want it to. Those gay 2 week stints where you fall in and out of love so quick you can't even remember them. But you always remember his name. Always. Adapting to something you never thought possible. And the memories of a different world seem to close to abandon. The Sarah McDonalds in me comes out after these Chinese Xanax. And most of the fre...
Can you believe he bought me a pack of cigarettes? He told me of stories of Drunk Armed Forces having wild careless 4 somes in a $20 hotel room. Of fucking the hell out of each other and the pretty boy getting the clap. "Getting the clap" as he put his hands together and made a shivering motion. Ahhh, the clap.... chlamidia. It's a bacterial infection, no big deal. The pretty boy got the clap. ha ha ha. These weekends are crazy, but replaceless. These nights we have together She ...
"I'm not a fucking Marine" he tells me in a raised voice. Then he tells me stories of wanting to be with an Airforce Man because Navy always wants Airforce. He was such an easy guy to please, an expensive date, but he was cool with whatever. Totally flexible and not strongly opinionated on what to do. Not a big Butchy Boss like Billy. We would make out in Dark Corners all over central Okinawa. I knew I couldn't keep him, but he was nice to have for the day. Then I return to my loneso...
the principal walks out of his two story apartment and lightly bows his head at the vice principal. they chuckle and bow at each other in a lightly flirtatious manner. he walks out in his farm boy demeanor and the vice principal continues talking to some semi disgruntled employee pretending like she gives a flying fuck. she maintains eye contact like a con artist. and the chubby chink disgruntled employee is my co worker, she works harder and gets paid less than me. but i still love he...
What can validly make you feel good, and how getting addicted to it will make you a better more self-confident person and only better your life....... it took years to figure it out. But it's a job well done. now I sound like some dothead philosopher that works in the front of the walmart ever since my computer programmer son brought me to suwannee, GA. but i guess the "pieces of you" philosophy bit from Jewl rings true. After doing a good job, you feel refreshed, your life has new meaning...
Ifm gonna make a mistake- Ifm gonna do it on purpose Ifm gonna waste my time Cuz Ifm full as a tick And Ifm scratching at the surface And what I find is mine And when the day is done, and I look back And the fact is I had fun, fumbling around All the advice I shunned, and I ran Where they told me not to run, but I sure Had fun, so Ifm gonna fuck it up again Ifm gonna do another detour Unpave my path And if you wanna make sense Whatcha looking at me for Ifm no good at m...
Dirty Dirty Boy of Sin I am. Dirty Dirty Boy. The drunk marines are endless. The few, the not so proud says the wrinkling 35 yr ole E-4 next to me. I walk into the hall of Kamikaze happiness and the world starts spinning all of a sudden. A weekend of Chinese Xanax blows me a punch of "chilling out" and the world today is somwhat less bearable. these chinese motherfuckers are going down. don't ask me to do shit. dedicate your life to these children. I want a man. I'm so fuckin...
I've felt these signs before, of a Job slipping away. I hold on to only what I want to. I do not appreciate other people's tolerance of my laziness. My physical condition is not reliable in any way shape or form. And then the Rice Islander walks off in a non confrontational way. I'm sorry I'm brown. I'm brown. Maybe it doesn't really matter, but I see the world through a brown lens. And that sucks big black cock. Squirt Squirt for me like anybody else would My stomach waits i...
Too much of watching the Bachelor, too much of hanging out in the maternity ward. Where those babies are so pure and cute and their bioligical predessecors are only a footstep away. Look at those red hairful babies. I want one of those. As I step into the Britney mode of things, I realize that life needs to move on. I need to be a more positive person. And stop making victims of my presence, victims of my presence. Someone is crying in the background, and at this moment the wails i...
Another weekend of getting nothing but exicted. Weekend of being stimulated beyond your normal realm. A weekend old things becoming new and new things becoming old. Off walks big gay dave, in walks southern oxfordite. angry angry angry angry as all sin combined. You can't be happy without me, do you understand, you can't be happy without me. I hung out with Renee alot of this weekend. It was good, she is comforting. I just shot John Lennon. God my arm is hurting so much. It'...
After a weekend of way too much drinking and making new friends. And a morning of basking in Gaijin Glory. I realized something that aged me 5 years. Here is an intro of an article that has alot of interest to me. Japanese have long embraced a salad of feelings toward Korea. Guilt over the brutal occupation of the Korean peninsula, contempt for a people who must be inferior to suffer suppression, bewildered resentment of anti-Japanese prejudice enshrined in curbs on the import of...
God I got so drunk last night, but it was fun. Letting go of what I don't even have. And maybe its gonna be okay after all. I hope I didn't touch Christians face too much, but he does have a nice face doesn't he. People think I'm a girl.(he says) God Phil is so Anglo-hot. British men are the best. but their pansies are so wrinkled. you know what I'm saying. what should I do? I hope I didn't piss Ellie off too much, god Dave and her are like 2 butch dykes in heat.....lol You...
My baby says he never asked me to change and perhaps he never did. But his hate of all things black, and his love of this brownie. confused me, I was set in an Indian housewife mentality, and I should have let it go. I wonder if he will still love me the way I am now. If its true love he will I will not get rid of the black inside of me. I will not push it aside like nicole richie. Of course it will limit my selection in men But men are just fancy handbags. remember
She comes around like the morning sun. And she greets me with her warmness. The dirty smiling of the younger boys stirs me the right way. And I see her struggle in her shadow. Her eyes tell me nothing that I want to hear. He looks at me and tells me I'm hard to get close to. He's a stupid mother fucker with fudged up teeth. Where love puts you is where you want to be. So I think of him naked, I think of him pleasantly. But he wants to wear his darkly bright aloha shirt. He's a mid...