so here's the deal my everything here's the deal I cried so much last night, I thought I was breaking I haven't cried that much prob since middle school and I've been through some pretty horrible shit I'm fighting the tears as I write this I've never had that feeling before so I can take care of my work shit and you do what you have to do with sam I will move there mostly for you you will be on my mind but I can't take this feeling so wonderful but knowing that you're here o...

you're fighting for your land or your esteem not for me you're fighting for your stability not for me I want to hold you and not smother your independence prove to you that your attraction to me is not in vain but I can't because of my penis because of your penis this sucks being gay sucks loving you doesn't suck "you have a gift" you tell me as I work to please you because I knew you'd be gone and I wanted to make you happy I wanted you to miss me as you experienced th...

so this man claims to be bisexual and informs me that he plans on being confused for a long time the fact that he sleeps with women frankly grosses me out I don't want to think of him in the act and feel disgusted that the man who holds my heart sleeps with the opposite gender perhaps its just natural human jealousy kicking in I don't want to have to deal with 100% of humanity versus just 50% my previous man stated he had issues with my race not questioning being sexually attracted...

oh Woody won't you be mine Woody come back to me cause I miss you so much I sit still as only the tears move tonight I knew all this , but you felt so good I knew, You knew tells me the veteraned as he consoles me the outsider best friend tells me to run away run away from the pain from something that I dove into myself so easy to label the victim or the opressor from my ivory tower but not this situation not tonight.