I need to get over not wanting to be gay. I need to get over trying to make the gringos like me. I need to get over my third world complex. If I was in Britain, he says. If only I was in Britain.
And I've gained 30 fucking pounds, or 15kgs since I've been here and I'm on a one way road to fatness. Holler, Holler anyone who wants to get dollars dollars. God gringos are so hot. I just want to eat and get drunk until I'm entertained. I just want to be fucking normal, but normal is boring isn't it.
Britain is a great country, I wish they had more arrogance. But it seems that humbleness and understating yourself are important things to Brits. I suppose I don't hate what I'm doing, but I just need some enchantment. People escape okinawa to gain some speed. People usually take vacations to escape the rush. It's so wierd isn't it.